How does it feel

As I walked away from my first therapy session I felt very strange. It was liberating to tell someone out loud who I really am and how it feels every day to pretend to be someone else.

My whole life I have had to present this “expected person” to the world. He’s my greatest creation. But  it’s exhausting playing him every day. I’m so sick of it.

I just dream about one day not having to be “him” and just be me.

But it’s only when I say it all out loud that I begin understand it. I begin to see how it has affected my life and how painful it always feels. I am such a fool.

Written by Beth

Hi I’m Beth and I am an m2f transgender person. I have never really known how to deal with my gender dysphoria so have kept it to myself for a long time. Forgive me for using this blog as a kind of therapy. I hope some of it will resonate with you and maybe help you to feel less alone. I will always try be your ally and your friend because I know how hard it is. Contact me if you need to talk. Peace and love❤️

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