I’m really sorry if this offends anyone but I don’t want to be transgender. Maybe me saying that means I’m not?

I don’t have the courage or the steely determination that I can see the brave transgender men and women exhibit in countless YouTube videos and blogs. That probably means I don’t want it enough.

I hate feeling the way I do. I’ve had it since I was four years old. Enough!

I want it to go away. I want it to leave me alone. I want it to stop ruining my life.

Does Prozac work, what about other antidepressants? Any other drugs? Has anyone tried some alternatives? I just want to make it stop so I can go on being who I need to be for the people who need me. They have earned their immunity from dealing with this.
How can it be there is only one solution to this. What about the weak, feeble scared people like me.

To all the brave amazing transgender men and women who are or have transitioned you amaze me and inspire me but I don’t have your courage and I mean you no disrespect.

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Written by Beth

Hi I’m Beth and I am an m2f transgender person. I have never really known how to deal with my gender dysphoria so have kept it to myself for a long time. Forgive me for using this blog as a kind of therapy. I hope some of it will resonate with you. If it does I would love to hear from you to chat and help if I can so please message me and let’s talk.

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